Insanity is - doing the same thing you’ve always done and expecting different results.
Hello, my name is Jason Robert and I am the founder of The Self Made Men. I would rather not sit here in this bed at 3am EST debating as to whether or not to close TSMM. When I started this company it was everything to me, and as it developed I realized that for a… however small group of people, it was everything to them too. Over the passed 4 years of development I often joked about writing a book later on about “how advocacy ruined my life”. More times than not I’ve found myself extremely overwhelmed at the responsibility of being the person I was now expected to be.
I made a company look like a company, even though it’s always been essentially just me. Blocking off designated areas of my own living space to house inventory. Giving up hours of my days and stretching myself thin for absolutely zero pay… In fact mostly out of pocket. Sacrificing my rights of privacy to the community dead set on destroying itself… We all know Tumblr is not a safe space.
I don’t want to be thinking about how easy it would be to give it up and just be… me. Our singular area of weakness currently is that I’ve allowed work that pays, and social life to interfere with answering emails and maintaining solid minimal shipping times. We receive more angry emails this way, which essentially… leveling with you here… gives me horrible anxiety. So much so that I want to shut the company down and never open our email account again. Or leaves me awake at 3am like tonight knowing that I need to fix this… That TSMM is still everything to me and to some people and I can’t let them down.
I hope you can appreciate that I’m being human with you, and not commercial. I’ve created a shipping department on our website to keep up with shipping times. I’ve also blocked off areas of my schedule where I’ll be sending items out and getting up to date and making sure lost orders are handled. Please just remember that you are important to me… and I’m doing my best to keep up.